Şu "An"ımda Bir İnsanı Hissediyorum (At That Time I Feel A Person)

We see people, we hear people…
We understand heard things, we comment about seen things
What about feeling?...
In fact, we feel people mostly.
I met someone the other day. Subject that is his family and himself was mentioned during talking. His past life was seeming quite tragic. He didn’t talk about everyting with detail, 
But, he talked about one thing that everybody was affected.
We were talking a famous rap singer. Subject that affect us was mentioned, when we asked him if he had liked this rap singer.
His old brother had liked him and he had lived as this rap singer. He had drugged, had worn as, had talked as him. My friend said that his brother hadn’t had a strong personality , so he had affected him too much and he had commited suicide by shooting. When he had commited suicede, he had been listening the favorite song whose this singer. He had bid his life farewell with this song.
The most important part of this tragic story is, when he talked about this story, he was very calm as everything is normal. There is not upset feeling at his voice and there is not nervous feeling at his behaviors.
When we mentioned that affected this story, he said that all of them was in the past, and it was not problem for him.
I had his eye, when he said “ I don’t want you to feel upset for it”…
Just as, at a little bit time, I saw his pain at his eyes. I realized to everything that he lived is hurt deeply him. I saw everything that he said is in the past, actually everything that he is keeping behind his eyes.
When I saw his eyes deeply, his smiling is lost meaning. Colorful lighting that he spread is turned out.
There is pain and cheer in his eyes…
Though everyhing is happened, at his eyes, there is a person that learned smiling, struggles, is exciting, is cheerful, didn’t forget pain which he lived, keeps behind pains or regrets, lives pains and the other feeling inside, breaks out inside…
The eyes that look deeply,are full pained but cheerfull,are friendly, are not haunted.
I heard a human that day…
I saw a human that day…
I felt a human that day…
I am crying two drop now for things that I heard,saw,felt that day.